The thing about Chemistry is that I must take it. Well, I did not really choose to take Chemistry directly, but some other choices I made demanded that I take the subject. Now, I am topics behind, trying to keep up lecture after lecture,tutorial after tutorial. I really planted a seed of self-destruction the moment I decided not to pay attention for Chemical Energetics. Now, as I sturggle to just get the topics that will be tested in a couple of weeks stright, I foresee me being lost in a few months time too. Magical oracle board says 55: 4 minutes, 156: 17 minutes.

Today, I returned Jinyu her physics mock test MCQ question, happily pointing out 4 of the questions she got wrong. Guess what, turns out that I was wrong for 3 out of the 4 questions. Physics is supposed to be the subject that I am ready for. How ready am I, spending more than 30 minutes on 15 MCQ questions and still getting them wrong. The last test was no fluke, my understanding of Physics is flawed. During physics lesson today, I could not recall anything from oscillations either. This is going back on my checklist. Magical oracle board says 55: 4 minutes, 156: 12 minutes.

Speaking of subjects that I am supposed to be good at, I did some questions on inequalities in the libary. I took down questions that are simple as they can possibily be in no less than an awfully long time. On top of that, I had some questions which ended with an answer I know cannot be right. I frantically searched for the mistake hiding behind the wall of workings, ignoring the chuckles and taunts from the irrational numbers at the foot of the wall. I tried to test the hypothesis of me being able to keep my only A, but I could not remember the format. Maybe I would have better luck calculating the probability that I will pass Math Promos. Nope, I forgot my "Probabilities" too. Magical oracle board says 55: 4 minutes, 156: 10 minutes.

I was smacked in the face this afternoon by my Economics mock test. Hey look, I got 8. It is a nice single digit number. Maybe it is a good Chinese omen. I really thought that I might be doing something right this time, but apparently not. That made me start doing my holiday essay assignment on market failure and government intervention. Maybe I will actually understand the topic better if I do what my tutor tells me too. Magical ordacle board says 55: 3 minutes, 156: 7 minutes.

I cannot help but to think what I am working so hard for. No matter how hard I try, I see myself failing multidisciplinarily (Perfect Spelling! 8 syllabus bonus +3000 points!). I just have to tell myself that everything will be okay, just like I do to my Project Work members when they ask. Depressingly, I know that behind these exams are Project Work and Chinese. I have faith in Project Work, but I know it is still going to be alot of work. I have not touched Chinese for so long that I am not surprised if they changed some of the characters into more modern, new fangled ones. Not that I would notice anyway. Magical oracle board tries to say something. It gets ignored.

55 came to a halt in front of my face, and beckoned me back from my hellish thoughts about impending academic doom. I stuffed my unread notes back into my bag. A world class public transportation system have boards that tells you the timings for all the different bus services. Singapore's public transportation system have boards that lies about them. Magical oracle board says 55: 3 minutes, 156: 4 minutes.

R is for regret. Sadly, time only flows forward. We cannot change our past actions, nor can we accurately depict future consequences of our current actions. This leads us to do things that we might want to change, to correct. This longing for another chance is regret. Actions are commitments. Once we do them, there is no turning back, so just live with all the commitments that you have made. Triggers for regret includes stupidity and rashness. Unfortunately, there is nothing you can do about other than get over it.